21 April 2011

Hospital going Haywire

There is this highly advanced hospital in the south of the Netherlands – where every patient has a computer above his bed fulfilling all the wishes of the sick. A completely automated institution. I got this email in my mailbox where the sender tells about his mother-in-law being hospitalized, I’ll translate:

“My mother-in-law has been hospitalized for several months now in this highly advanced hospital. Because the hospital is heavily in debt crisis they have been cutting down drastically on staff. Therefor the staff that is left can hardly cope with all the work and the patients have to do with very little personal care.

Robot - Equal MoneyMy mother-in-law confided in me she and other elderly patients have one big fear: fear of The Robot! Fear The Robot will enter the elevator…

Wtf, is she imagining things? Going out of her mind? I continued investigating the matter of The Robot and yes, a lot of the small jobs – like delivering mail and parcels all around the hospital - are performed by robots.

Starting from within the depths of the basements these robots are directed by computers to deliver their parcels. And so it happens you are in the elevator and such a robot enters, with speaking voice and lights flashing…

My mother-in-law and her elderly fellow sufferers fear they will be crushed, or even worse, by the speaking robot. So she will never ever take the elevator on her own, but always makes sure she is being accompanied by the group of fellow elderly patients – so they can as a group defend themselves against The Robot.

Rather sour – cutting back on staff but spending all that money on a high tech robot, feared by the patients!“

Now this makes no sense to me at all – why invest money in such an expensive robot and fire the people that did this job? I can’t imagine these robots really being that much cheaper to use, I mean, when they break down it will again cost a lot of money to repair. And they have to be maintained also – specialised skills needed=expensive labour.

But my main point is: what about the people in the hospital that like a little talk with the ‘mail man’ at their bedside, or a quick ‘Hello Mrs B how are you doing today?’ A robot won’t ask – and even if he did: it is not the same.
I think this is an undesirable situation and direction, replacing humans for robots where humans are needed…

I remember, when I was still in art school I made some money by cleaning rooms in this institution for disabled people. They were all so happy when I came to clean up their living space! Not just because of the cleaning but seeing another living being to have small talk with, to be seen and heard for a moment. I enjoyed the talks although I was not allowed to speak with them by the management!!! This was explicitly mentioned when I applied for the job – you are not allowed to talk to the people; just clean (and be silent).
Well, I didn’t care about the rule. But I ended up nearly getting fired; it was me getting ‘back problems’ so I decided to leave the job, but otherwise I would have been fired for sure.

When you are sick, in hospital or in an institution for disabled persons or otherwise locked up in an environment deprived of human contact, or just simply lonely – robots can’t fill in that gap.

Unfortunately money and profit is always a bigger motivator than human needs

badgeWe Destonians stand for the removal of this Money-Profit-God from the face of the Earth that always place money first and beings needs last. By implementing a new system, Equal Money we call it, every single human being on this Earth will be provided with the basic needs, like food, housing, clothes, education, health care – equally. No one will have more or less. Removing the fear of survival (where money and profit comes in and with that in-equality because some have it all, and most have nothing: no food, shelter, medical care, education…) because survival is been taking care of. We will be free to express ourselves as we are. And profit making will be something of the past – gone – exit – basta

Education is nevertheless of utmost importance. Education on the Equal Money System and Equality. What is Equality? What does it entail? What does it take? How can I support myself to become Equal to All? How can I support myself and others as well?
DesteniiProces is the answer. Look for info here.

Another point in rough times to come, is the economical situation. Our security is crumbling slowly but surely. More and more people lose their jobs, get unemployed and with that lose their financial stability in a world where money is everything. Without money you are lost. And the Equal Money System where fear of survival is no longer the guiding principle, is not yet established.

Therefor Desteni has developed the Income Plan to bridge this period. By the principle of Buy – Use – Sell you are able to not only provide yourself a decent income but also sharing with others this opportunity to establish a solid financial platform for yourself (and your family) and at the same time provide yourself with all the necessary tools to prepare yourself for and support the establishing of a World in Equality.
In this current system you and I we still need money, so lets support ourselves to establish a comfortable financial foundation.

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20 April 2011

From hatred to zero

Funny, yesterday Dj’s father unexpected dropped by – I just started working on my Mind Construct on him. We hardly ever see him, maybe three, four times since Dj was born. On previous occasions I experienced strong reactions of disgust, hurt and rejection – yesterday there was none. For a moment some surprise because of him suddenly turning up.

secret-mask-iconWorking through the Mind Constructs of my Mom and Dad did free up a lot of space in me already – space of non reaction.

So in the time span he was actually here, in my living room – I did not experience much, certainly no reactions of disgust etc. It was only afterwards I started to think about the event and re-creating the emotions by deliberately re-living memories. So there are 2 Dj’s father’s in my life: the actual one – on which I do not experience (m)any reactions, and the other one - in my memory.

I’ll work my way through my Mind Construct of the second one, the man I created through pictures I still hold on to, being deliberately spiteful. And because these pictures of the father that ‘abandoned’ both me and Dj are part of a personality I’ve build around the past-events. Just like I didn’t want to let go of my grudge against my Mom at first – because this was part of the personality I’d build my life around.

Time to take of this mask.

PS it suddenly crossed my mind that maybe I could let him back into in our life if that’s what he is after. Quite a surprise me even considering this because for so long I’ve desired him coming back and me saying bluntly ‘no, fuck off’ lolol. I have no wish for him to be in our lives but maybe he could fit in somewhere? We’ll see.

I’ll keep a diary of me working through this ‘Dj’s Father’ stuff and what I work with regarding ‘old pain and suffering’ :)


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16 April 2011

Secrets the Rich don’t want you to know…

From a video on YouTube:

A secret that every Republican President since Ronald Reagan didn't want you to know:

Reagonomics creates a massive economic inequality that screws over 98% of the Americans. And it rains down money on the other 2% who use that extra cash to speculate on Wallstreet. That is why they call it "Reaganomics" because it was after the Reagan administration that it really took off.

Equal Money 1Over the last 30 years the bottom 90% got a pay raise of 1% –

while the top 1 % has had a pay raise over the last 30 years of more than 403 %!  That’s who need to pay less taxes?!

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Republicans are now trying to pass a budget that will embrace an even more radical version of Reagonomics. For the first time in 30 years America has a president that refuses to embrace Reagonomics. Obama says: “We don't have money for education, we don't have money for health, but we have 1 trillion dollar to reduce tax from the 10% riches people in USA… That’s not going to happen as long as I am president.”


Now figure: is it in your country any different?

This ‘vampire’ economics can only exist because we all allow it; we are all equally responsible. Stand up and end it. We are all One Vote in all countries all over the World!

High time for an Equal Money System where ALL people will have their fair share of the resources. No more Rich and no more Poor – where everybody is equally wealthy…


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08 April 2011

Saying Goodbye to my Mom

Finished my Mind Construct of my Mom – the last part was me sitting at her death bed. And finally after 27 years I was in peace while sitting there.
No more fear. No more grudges. No more blame. No more longing for something. Just peace.
Me sitting there once again – for a moment feeling sorry for me ignoring her wanting to say something to me, her last words to me. But that’s ok – I realize feeling sorry is of no use, because what is done is done.
I said goodbye to Mom – finally letting go of the Mom in my mind. I am thankful for her taking care of me as a kid – for I know now, being a mom myself, how hard it is taking care of kids. What a job it is – especially in the Matrix.
So thank you Mom.
What is left? A simple picture in my mind – a photograph of her being happy. Taking in a period of her life where she finally started to free herself of her many fears and started to enjoy her life. Sadly she didn’t have that many years left to enjoy – she died at the age of 52.
Luckily I still live to explore Life and participate in establishing Equality for All in this world. I am thankful for that. For supporting a New World with the implementation of the Equal Money System as a first stepping stone - where the fucked-up-ness of this current world system will cease to exist. Where parents and children are equals and abuse such as I as a kid suffered and children all over the world have to ‘endure’, cease to exist. Because all of humanity is in process then to birth themselves as Life – to be real, in the Physical and free of the Mind, free of thoughts, emotions and feelings directing them into this endless infinity circle of recurring suffering.
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Free to express themselves unconditionally – can you imagine doing your work for a hobby?! Enjoying what you do and not worry about money and rent and mortgages?!  Children being raised and educated and living together as a group – no possessiveness by parent-child constructs. No sexual abuse or any other kind of abuse. No inter-dependency. Parents in agreement exploring themselves and giving the best of themselves to all. Animals given the right on a dignified life… And so on. Utopia? No! A New World is Possible!
Educate yourself and walk with us – will yourself to be part of the solution.
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07 April 2011

Child Brides in India and Nepal

Photo by Gagan Thapa

photo by Gagan Thapa

I was watching this documentary on Child Brides.
Although forbidden by law, it is still common use in India and Nepal for girls to be married off at a very young age:  2, 3 years old. They will live with their own family until they are sexually mature; then the girl leaves home for ever to live with her in-laws and her husband:  the beginning of a term of slavery to their mother-in-law. We’re talking kids here – 11, 12 year old girls.

Of course the marriage-bargain then gets clinched by the ‘deflowering’ of the young girl. And the girls getting pregnant at the onset of puberty: physically and in every other way not ready for pregnancy yet.  And every child birth a hazardous event. Child brides have a double pregnancy death rate of women in their 20s. In developing countries, the leading cause of death for young girls between the ages of 15 and 19 is early pregnancy.

The girl is expected to give birth to many, many children – as economical insurance for the future. A life of repeated pregnancies and unremitting childcare; that is, if they survive their first pregnancies. The people are very poor and the girls are often malnourished and (sexually) abused.

Where poverty is acute, a young girl may be regarded as an economic burden and her marriage to a much older – sometimes even elderly – man, a practice common in some Middle Eastern and South Asian societies, is a family survival strategy.

Those girls that dare to resist this culture and money based tradition, will be like a black sheep in her community – spit on and out-casted. Cultural, economic, and religious aspects of the communities where they live make it nearly impossible for the girls to break free from marrying early.

Education being an important key to ending child marriages, the girls never get to finish school, so they will not stand a chance to be financially independent.
Many believe that education may prove to be more successful in preventing child marriages than banning child marriages. Education together with an Equal Money System will proof to be even more successful – because the basic needs of each human being will be provided for, so there will be no more economical need for Child Brides. Every girl will be independent and free to arrange her life herself.

Overpopulation will slowly but surely diminish because there is no economical need for a bunch of children anymore. People educate themselves, parents and kids together, on how to live a dignified life and how to support other beings on this Earth in their right for a dignified life.
Read more on the Equal Money System as the Final Solution

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Some random facts on Child Brides:*
  • According to the International Centre for Research on Women (ICRW), 100 million girls will be married before the age of 18 in the coming decade. Most will be in sub-Saharan Africa and the Asian Subcontinent (Nepal, India, Pakistan, Bangladesh). In Niger, for example, 77% of women in their early 20s were married as children. In Bangladesh, 65% were. Child marriage also occurs in parts of the Middle East, including Yemen and the rural Maghreb.
  • In the United States, child marriage is still permissible in some states, with parental or judicial consent.
  • Globally, according to UNICEF, 36% of women aged 20-24 were married or in a union, forced or consensual, before they'd reached 18.
  • An estimated 14 million girls between the ages of 15 and 19 give birth each year. They are twice as likely to die during pregnancy or childbirth than women in their 20s.
  • Girls who marry between the ages of 10 and 14 are five times as likely to die during pregnancy or childbirth as women in their early 20s.

Upper photo by Gagan Thapa – see here his blog and FaceBook profile

We Destonians stand for the removal of this Money-Profit-God from the face of the Earth that always place money first and beings needs last. By implementing a new system, Equal Money, every single human being on this Earth will be provided with the basic needs, like food, housing, clothes, education, health care – equally. No one will have more or less. Removing the fear of survival (where money and profit comes in and with that in-equality because some have it all, and most have nothing: no food, shelter, medical care, education…) because survival is been taking care of. We will be free to express ourselves as we are. And profit making will be something of the past – gone – exit – basta
Visit Desteni and do your research on the guidelines for Equality and learn how to apply them. Also visit our Destonians Wiki on Wikipedia for an overview of what being a Destonian means.

04 April 2011

My Mother the Demon part 3 – Finale

Gears-of-War-Skull-2-256x256A long time ago I did some therapy on my fear of my Mom. I contained my mom in an imaginary circle – she was not able to cross the line and was imprisoned. I was satisfied with that – she was not able to harm me anymore and I couldn’t care less how and what she must experience while captivated in that circle. I finally could be at peace with her not haunting me anymore.
Also I felt satisfaction: it was also some kind of revenge – her suffering.
Although the therapist at the end of our session suggested to release her, I was very stubborn and did not want to set her free.

Now working on my Mind Construct of my Mom for weeks, many points of stagnation: I felt I was not able to let go, not able to forgive her and myself, not able to set myself free. I really struggled – sabotaging myself because of wanting to hold on to the pay off old grudges. Why is that?
I realized the picture of her imagined captivity in the circle is the representation of this holding on, this resisting to release. So I imagined letting her go – lol – didn’t work at first. I saw this demon I defined my mom as, getting enraged in the circle, foam at the mouth, crazy eyes, smashing himself up against the imaginary cage, grabbing at me – quite a frightened sight. But I was safe because I am the one in charge. And no way I was going to release this monster! lol
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Today, after doing more self forgiveness I am ok with it. I set the demon free. I am not afraid, because he can’t hurt me – because I am not afraid any longer. He can’t touch me, can’t harm me. So off you go demon! Run! lol

Of course I realize this is all imaginary – just like my fear for her is made up, make believe: it is all mind-based, created and kept in place with thought-constructs.
I am the creator of all of this. I created the demon and I created the fear for the demon – so I was actually in charge all the time, but didn’t realize :)
Nevertheless I had great difficulty letting go because it all seemed so real! For so many years it felt so real and now I am saying goodbye to this companion-for-years :)

The tools and structure offered by the Desteni’I’Process supported me immensely to walk this step by step, in a structured way – to not loose myself in the emotional turmoil that goes with disturbing child hood memories.

My mother the Demon part 1
My mother the Demon part 2
The Devil in her Eyes
Saying Goodbye to my Mom

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