31 March 2008
As I told you I will assist you guys with some practical application to assist you in this world.
Okay so what is the most common situation in this world? Money, survival and relationships.
So the first start would be your thoughts and for instance when you experience emotions and feelings. So your thoughts, clearly your thoughts are not who you are. Clearly obviously, your thoughts are derived from a mind consciousness system inside you.
Now many questions has been asked, like “why can’t the systems just be taken out?” Because literally if we take them out your entire physical human body at this moment would collapse entirely because you have infused yourself as that system to such an extent that if we just take it out you’d be out, in other words you would die.
And also because it is your process and all human beings are in this process together and not only you but the dimensional beings as well, in other words what I am speaking here as in terms of the practical application that is required, we are applying it as you as well. We are not just standing back saying “okay do this, do that” you know, I am in you. And so, realized that we are to give ourselves up completely and become you as you and walk this thing with you completely. So it is very interesting and fun.
So getting back to thoughts, let’s start with thoughts. You are aware of what you think, really, if you sit in the evening and look at your day from the morning you will notice moments in the experience of the day that you had thoughts and what exactly you did experience inside your self. So my suggestion would be to go through your day and be aware of your thoughts and your emotions, and feelings and in the evening sit in your bed and write.
So when you write, go through your day and pick out specific moments that stand out. Moments that you specifically remember where you had a thought that brought up emotions and or feelings. I guarantee you will remember them because in essence you are actually aware the entire day it is just that beings do not admit that to themselves and they actually don’t want to. So you will remember specific moments. That would be my first suggestion.
What you do is you look at the thoughts you had in that moment, look at what you experienced in that moment and then you apply forgiveness. But this forgiveness has to be applied extremely specifically!…It is like you capture a moment like you are taking a photograph of it, of the experience you had during the day. So you take that moment and you actually capture it and as you sit in your bed in the evenings because you actually remember it, you will remember I guarantee it. And then you have to apply forgiveness at every point. You apply forgiveness to the thought you had, you have to apply forgiveness to whatever you experience according the emotions and feeling you had inside of you. You have to forgive the person or the event that occurred in that moment and then you also have to forgive yourself as you did not stand up in that moment and actually apply forgiveness in that moment.
And so you continue. And I am writing about this to become more specific… exactly ...exactly... how specific you have to do forgiveness because if you even miss one point on that moment that you have experienced it will remain because that point still exists inside you as a memory that you are holding on too that you are using to define yourself by.
Then you also will be able to become more aware during your day. What is awareness? I am making you aware at this moment by saying to you what are thoughts what emotions are and what are feelings now you are aware of it. Now in that awareness you have to apply that awareness in terms of when you see a thought that is coming up forgive it because it doesn’t’ matter what that thought is about, it doesn’t matter whether it is good or bad, both you have to forgive because it is a thought, a thought is a thought and a thought is not who you are it is a mind consciousness system development. And then you will also get to the stage where you kind of see thoughts coming but you won’t have any reactions to the thoughts.
And oh…you also have to remember if you do have a reaction to the thought which will also be a process because it kind of happens you know you will have a thought and you go to guilt and then you go into fear and then, don’t worry just forgive that guilt, just forgive that fear of that you had that thought and then forgive the thought as well. But soon you will realize that you see these thoughts floating around and you will have no reaction. You see like these little picture things going around. All you do is delete it stop it, just stop.
Participation in thoughts is a very interesting thing because thoughts bring fourth a curiosity you know, you kind of see a thought coming up and you just kind of want to follow it because it seems so interesting and you start to go oh there you go and you tend to let it take you away with it. So be careful of those moments because it kind of lifts you out (up?) like a complete dimensional shift, you kind of shift out for a moment and then you are out there in your mind somewhere and something brings you back and you oh my god I am here.
Now do that for yourself, when you see a thought coming stop it immediately. It is like an addiction. It is like an addiction, you will experience it like an addiction, you will want to follow that thought I have to follow that thought, I have to find out what that thought is about it must be important. Well it is not important. If you are not present not breathing and all that exists is you in this space where you in this world in the moment, problem. Then you are in your mind, you are somewhere there and you’re again feeding this whole mind consciousness system inside you.
So stop all thoughts please, they are not important. And as an experiment for yourself what I suggest you do if you want to, follow your thoughts, and do it in the evening when you are in your bed. Follow your thoughts and you will notice an interesting thing, your thoughts always take you to the exact same place. It is one thought going from one place to another. So try that, and also the experience you have when watching your thoughts observe your thoughts. So for a moment try that, just for yourself so you can see that thoughts take you to the exact same point always and it is very limited and you always have the same exact thoughts.
You will also come to know that. That all thoughts are exactly the same.
Okay this is Veno.
30 March 2008
1-- see that humanity is one body--you and each human is one cell and each cell represents what you have allowed yourself to become and now you must heal you
2--Realise--then to first prepare yourself with the Armour/tools to do this healing--that tools are self forgiveness on all the cells manifested and self honesty to make sure you will never again --even if you forget-- yourself to become any of the expressions of these cells that manifested as humans--then you will have self will--now you are ready to take the task on big time as self directed self expression --firstly as Revelation as life in every moment no matter what and secondly as the force of life forcing yourself to stand up and do something tangible/that you can touch in 3d with your days to sort out yourself
then you start to get the idea of what equality and oneness mean and how we are responsible for this world
3--look--if you do nothing--you will be a slave--and some-one else--another cell--will be in your face and remove your mask with the force of life--which is life force
4. so--I suggest--get your lifeforce forceful and forcibly force all parts of you to life-- or you die with the rest of your body--must reincarnate again--take 350 billion years to get here and face the same point
Realise this--throughout ages and many live and many processes we have all been all things and we have all done all things--so--to stop this--we will have to force ourselves to forgive ourselves--I find that where we are not willing to forgive ourselves--we blame some-one else as well for something that we are not willing to forgive them for
so--reflect as see if this is so
another way we trap ourselves is where we see ourselves as weak--especially with addictions and then we are not willing to trust that we will be able to change and then we cover it with--I am not able to forgive myself--self discipline necessary--and if not--don't worry--some traumatic time loop will sort all these problems out in the course of the next few years
Q. Given that humanity is one body consisting of many cells - then does that body have a 'head', a central point to which each cell relates in order to have the body function properly, give it direction, purpose or some form of organisation?
There is no head but a principle-- equality and oneness--currently this principle is fear and control as typified by religion and government and new world order--thus--this is the direction humanity as a whole is following as in heading
to be effective in this--we must focus on the 3d reality and discard anything else but what we are able to do as direct revelation and direct intervention--so to speak--clear the head of humanity as it is our head as well and this will then determine the head/direction our children will follow and eventually ourselves when we return in another body to continue our process
in future the continuation in another body will be directly according to self application--that has never been the case for 350 billion years and is one of the reasons the situation is in atrophy
Understand--the body as perceived by the mind--is what you see as cells
in reality---each cell is an actual universe--that means that all of heaven fit in one human cell
this gives you an idea of the awesome nature of man and why man is contained for a moment to become self aware and self responsible
Man became what man allowed--we are both our greatest support or our greatest destruction--and the world is OUR creation--and we will be stuck here till we stop creating in the ways we do
Q. Now, if we're mind consciousness systems, then who's currently doing the process? Is it the system or some part(self) that's who we are?
I ask this because, consciousness stated in it's article that it was actively engaged in the process of self termination.
Correct--all is self terminating--yet in this exist the possibility of life to be born-- and that is what is here for each being--and see--even a system is of life--yet separate--we created the systems and the unified field and now it is collapsing--we have to find a way or will fall with it
Q. And who decides all this? Who is the grand master behind this. There must be something doing this right, deciding: dimensions end now, incarnate as animals now etc... or is it an action==> reaction thing?
Q. yes - this seems to be one o the big q´s: WHO decided that?
Could it be equality and oneness as life as who we really are. Life itself.
in one of my conversations with me..(sorry C), he said; and who decided reincarnation should change? I certainly didn´t..! LOL
Ok, so you decide instead to go on as is? self destruct - is that to be preferred??
The perception that choice exists....the creation we are about to create once we stand as equal and one will be as far in the other direction to what we have created as possible. The memory of realization of what we did allow in creation 1, will into eternity make sure we never forget and never repeat!
There is no choice--separation exist because choice is perceived to exist--once realised that choice do not exist--one and equal it is
so-- once man give up choice--equality and oneness is manifested as self
each human being is one cell in the body of the world--
thus each one stand as slave to the body of the world unless they accept all parts of the body--all cells as themselves-- and direct those parts that is in dis ease or can cerious--but never Abel
thus--life is action as is breath--action
to sit in silence and beLIEf that all is fine --will cause a wake up call after death that one should avoid
forgiveness is a force--it does not happen without discipline and forced self honesty--it is especially the difficult forgiveness that will assist the most
we are all equal as a cell in the body-- I choose to reach out and wake up the rst of the body and ask others to join in the process
in that I share what I have found is REPEATABLE practical and effective--and give long lasting results
Q. Is this similar to the Ho'oponopono technique of Joe Vitale???? the master that taught him that told him that he first have to understand that he's responsible for everything that happens in this world and take the blame on him and after that he needs to forgive himself for what he's done. this is really similar
yes--that would be an example
but one must then find what is practical for all life in this world and stop all abuse as all you take responsibility for--to take all things upon yourself and make sure the forgiveness you did become the actions that change not only self--but the world--or it will be useless
so--the knowledge of forgiveness is useless--the action to manifest the correction is all that will be of value
till it is done
Q. manifest correction?
To live and apply the correction, eg:
I forgive myself for being envious - that is not enough. Now you apply yourself in situations and breathe and correct the causes for envy until that is not a reaction any more.
In other words you find the solution to the way that you have been experiencing yourself and you apply yourself until you are the correction (manifest)
you have to be the action that correct the situation and become the action and drive the action till it is done
24 March 2008
Somewhere in the past I established my reality regarding money - I was sure I would always have enough. And so far I did. In a way there was always money coming my way - never asked for it, it just came. Never much, because I don't want to have too much money. Just enough to feel safe in this world.
The moments I had more money than I needed, I got unhappy - I became 'greedy', wanted more and got worried about it. Could lose it. Was unhappy. So I made sure to get rid of it as soon as possible. Not really difficult to accomplish btw :)
So here I am, faced with my 'divorcee relationship' with money. Not free, imprisoned in the fear that seems to come along with the money subject. And projecting this on the world.
Now, what I want is a neutral attitude towards money. Using it as a tool, nothing more, nothing less, nothing attached to it. No feelings, emotions, thoughts whatsoever. So I will direct myself in letting go of all my perspectives on money, so I will be free to use money as a tool for whatever I want.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting from myself to fear money. I forgive myself for allowing and accepting from myself to judge the feelings of greed, of competition, of sorrow, of 'never enough', of separation that arises when I am faced with the subject of earning more money than I need. I forgive myself for allowing and accepting from myself to have a feeling of incompetence when faced with the subject of earning money. I forgive myself for allowing and accepting from myself to separate me and money. I forgive myself for allowing and accepting from myself to judge money in itself for being 'evil' instead of acknowledging that it is just paper and that it is what people are doing with it, is the problem. I forgive myself for allowing and accepting from myself to judge what people do with money as 'the problem'. I forgive myself for allowing and accepting from myself to judge what I am doing or not doing with money as 'a problem'. What I do or don't with money is just what it is. I do not judge what I do or don't with money as good or bad, it just 'is what it is'. I am what I am, I do not judge what I do or don't, it just 'is what it is'. Money is not the root of all evil, the mind is. I forgive myself for allowing and accepting from myself to judge the mind as the root of all evil. Mind is just what it is. Money is just what it is. I forgive myself for allowing and accepting from myself to judge anything or anyone, and thus separate myself from anything and anyone.
I feel resistance to let go of my reality that I will always have enough money. I am afraid I will starve or get in debt and so on. I am afraid that if I let go of this creation a deep black gap will open up and swallow me.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting from myself to fear having no money so I will starve. I forgive myself for allowing and accepting from myself to fear having no money so I will have to watch my son starve. I forgive myself for allowing and accepting from myself to fear having no money so the cats will starve. I forgive myself for allowing and accepting from myself to fear not being able to survive. I forgive myself for allowing and accepting from myself to feel the need to escape these feelings of fear by stopping this SF and by seeking distraction. I forgive myself for allowing and accepting from myself to fear not being able to survive because of being too old to prostitute myself so I would be able to survive. I forgive myself for allowing and accepting from myself for fearing to have no money to go to the vets when Bobbie would get ill, and I would have to watch him suffer, not able to do something to stop his suffering. I forgive myself for allowing and accepting from myself to fear watching Bobbie suffer. I forgive myself for allowing and accepting from myself to state I am too old to earn money in a easy way.
I will not starve because I will always have food. No, this isn't cool, self dishonest, still experiencing fear, so my starting point isn't 'clean' yet.
21 March 2008
18 March 2008
You will hear voices in your head. You will not be able to distinguish if it’s you or not you, all you’ll have is your self honesty and your starting point. It will seem as if it is coming from you as you – some beings might even mistake this as the voice of God and some will mistake it as the voice of the Devil.
It is what it is and part of the inner journey of self honesty.
You may even be able to write down the conversation and share it on Forum. At last we will now enter the fully blown insanity of this world.
15 March 2008
I've got a big issue with the terror of human robots indifference and coldness. insensitivity. Watched these horrible animal abuse vids again this week and the images are haunting me, especially the one of the doggie skinned alive. How can anyone do such a thing without experiencing anything?! This scares me so much! I am trying to push myself through this fear because it is immobilizing me, freezing me on the spot, filled with disgust, horror, fear. I am not sure what I would experience without these reactions, that's what keeping me also from not pushing through. But most of all it is fear...
My chest is hurting, like a thousands needles are pierced, having trouble breathing, coldness in the heart area, but rest of my body is warm & sweaty, I spot shivering, not really coming through yet.
Did some forgiveness already but having trouble finding the right words, of course I must face this reaction totally - then I will find the right words. How to push myself? It is like some - some tingling in my right upper arm now - built-in defence to keep me from facing this. Must have been necessary in the past, now it has to go. thanks, for trying to keep me safe from the horror of this world, but now I must grow up and see what I am participating in.
13 March 2008
“I fear death.”
“I fear pain.”
“I fear being shot.”
“I fear bleeding to death.”
“I fear burning to death.”
But what is interesting… what is the first statement in that entire sentence? ‘I fear’.
And the – ‘I fear’ is the first statement placement – ‘dying’, the second. So, ‘dying’ is a derivative from ‘I fear’. So ‘I fear’ is actually the manifestation of you as what you have accepted and allowed yourself to be one with and equal to.
So how does fear look like within human beings? Have a look, this is very fascinating. Let’s take for instance “I fear death”. ‘I fear’ is the first statement, ‘death’ is the outflow-derivate of ‘I fear’, which is the manifestation of what you have accepted and allowed yourself to be one with and equal to as fear. Now ‘death’ in itsself is fear. So actually, what you’re saying is “I fear fear.”
Let’s take another example. “I fear bleeding to death.” ‘I fear’, I.. fear.. which means ‘I am fear, I accept and allow myself to be one with and equal to fear.’ ‘Bleeding to death’ is the derivative of this fear-manifestation of what you’ve accepted and allowed yourself to be one with and equal to. ‘Bleeding to death’ in itsself is a fear. So, it’s “I fear fear”, again. Human beings fear their own fear. The most simplest yet, most ‘seemingly complex’ design within and as human beings mind consciousness system. Design human beings to fear their own fear and they exist in constant, continuous fear within themselves – charging, powering and generating the mind consciousness system within and as them.
But now, you can’t just go “I don’t fear anymore, it is now done.” No, you’ve built layers upon layers upon layers of self-definition within and as you as ‘I fear’ as ‘I am fear’ as the manifestation of you as what you’ve accepted and allowed yourself to be one with and equal to. So your “I fear fear” is ‘hidden’ in multiple different manifestations, it is like the tree of the mind system of fear. You have the roots which is fear itsself, which you’ve nurtured and grown with “I fear fear”, which is “I fear death”, which is “I fear bleeding to death”, “I fear being stabbed”, “I fear being robbed” - when that very ‘robbed’, ‘killed’, ‘stabbed’, ‘bleed’ is fears in itsself as a manifested placement within this world.
So, human beings fear their own fear, which exists within them, which they have accepted and allowed themselves to be one with and equal to.
So, human beings, I suggest the following: Make a list of all your fears, but you have to go in deep within yourself in absolute self-honesty and have a look at what it is that you’re accepting and allowing yourself to be one with and equal to in how you’ve designed you to fear your own fear. And so, you have to dis-embed yourself from all the “I fear fears” that you have connected in the relationship to your mind, because now your mind is designed according to your “I fear fears” which you’ve been designed and placed as pictures and words. For instance, you write down “I fear dying.” You say “I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to fear dying. I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to connect ‘dying’ to ‘fear’ itsself, and thus I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to fear my own fear.” And you do the same thing and just replace the word ‘dying’ with ‘bleeding to death’ or ‘being stabbed to death’.
Why? Human beings, realise that the generation and re-juvenation of fear within and as you is what is charging everything else that exist within this world. If you fear being stabbed to death, you charge and generate your mind consciousness system through your unconscious mind, it balances out in the unified consciousness field and someone else is stabbed to death. Because of your fear existing within you - because we exist in a unified consciousness field, we work on ‘polarity equated balance formations’ – it has to balance out somewhere else.
So, human beings, do not accept and allow yourself to be controlled or influenced by fear. Fearing fear itsself, interesting. And this fear you give ‘life to’, ‘attention to’, ‘power to’, ‘control to’ if you ‘think’ and ‘believe’ you are ‘powerless’ against fear. It is interesting, human beings think that if they fear something, they’re protecting themselves against the happening from them. You know, fear of dying – because if you fear dying, ‘maybe it won’t happen’. Then human beings exist their whole life in absolute fear of death and, what happens?, you die. Human beings, realise that you are inevitably dying within this world. Your human physical body can only last so long.
So the question is, are you actually going to live you as who you are in every moment of every breath or are you going to exist in constant, continuous fear, your entire existence until you one day die? Then inevitably, because you hold on to your fears, related to dying, you’re feeding the system, it balances out and someone else experiences what you fear. Stop the mind, human beings, it is not who you are. Live in every moment of self-honesty as self-trust and self-expression as you.
Thank you very much.
12 March 2008
...and idealize those guilty of the abuse...
In a way this is how I still participate in this world - always protecting the ones that did me 'wrong', finding excuses and reasons why they behave the way they do, so it will hurt less. Still wanting it to be my 'fault'...
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting from myself to define me as usefull/not usefull , worth/worhtless if not contributing in a 'seen way' to a cause outside of me.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting from myself to separate me and 'outside'.
I forgive myself for not allowing and not accepting from myself to do/say no thing without reaction.
I forgive myself for not allowing and not accepting from myself to just be.
I forgive myself for not allowing and not accepting from myself to embrace me as being useless/usefull/worthless/worth and so separate me by being in polarity.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting from myself to not embrace me as me in the moment.
I embrace me in every aspect.
I embrace my mind.
I embrace the mind.
I embrace all systems - violence, money, abuse - this is me. I embrace me as all that exists.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting from myself to be in separaration by rejecting abuse, dishonesty, honesty, love, hate, money, revenge, schoolsystem, other people, forum, noise, bad breath, dentist, vista, 'know-it-alls', hospital, fear, pain, useless, worthlessI embrace abuse, dishonesty, honesty, love, hate, moner, revenge, betrayal, schoolsytem, other people, separation, forum, noise, bad breath, dentist, vista, 'know-it-alls', hospital, fear, pain, useless, usefull, worthless, worth
All is as it is. I am as I am. I am all. I am.
All is my mirror and I am this mirror.
The question is: Is this Law – oneness and equality, as that which you accept and allow you to be one with and equal to – you will experience, manifest and create within you and your world, actually understood?
And furthermore the question: Why has it not been noticed, realised or seen by each one within this world, from the perspective that each one is directly responsible for each refraction, each iota of an experience within themselves their world and this world in its entirety?
Self, I, Me – is the origin, the source that determine the Law of my Being. Self, I, Me determine what I accept and allow me to be one with and equal to as the law of my being.
Thus – the Law of your being is that which you are, who I am, as what you accept and allow you to be one with and equal to within you and as you.
Therefore – all and everything of what you experience within you of yourself in this moment is ‘who you are’ – the ‘I’, ‘Me’, ‘Self = the Law of your Being – consisting of all and everything you’ve accepted and allowed yourself to be one with and equal to.
The question you have to ask yourself is: Is this ‘Me’, this ‘I’, this ‘Self’ that I experience myself to be – how I would want to continue existing infinitely? For a moment take a direct self honest look at yourself as you are right here in this moment looking at yourself, the entirety of you – everything about yourself, especially your thoughts, emotions, feelings – place yourself alone, standing alone: Are you able to exist with yourself infinitely as is?
The other question is: Would you want to? No change – as is, with everything as you are now remaining – going in constant continuous cycles with the exact same thoughts existent within you, the exact same emotions and feelings, the exact same behaviours…you with yourself as the personality defined nature that you are in this moment infinitely…
There exist a misconception within human beings – that when one die it is the end, the end of everything and all of self, of I, of me with the approach to one’s life here on earth as follows: That I may exist in this one life as is and then it’s done – so who or what gives a fuck what I do with me, or who I am or what I ‘choose’ to experience within this life? Believing there to be no consequence, no affect to anything or anyone with regards to ‘who I am’ and ‘what I do’ with me, with self, with I in this ‘one life’ – until it abruptly ends, unexpectedly.
But then again – in having a close, direct self honest look at your life experience in this moment here, day in and day out: Again place yourself alone – Are you able to do this that you experience day and day out – within and throughout infinity. The exact same, precise cycle – the exact same, precise experience – you alone with you experiencing the exact same that you are currently day in and day out – within and throughout infinity?
It doesn’t matter what religion, what faith or what belief you hold within you – these questions are directed to and for YOU to have a direct self honest look at within and as you – for you, self honestly have a look at the questions: Would you be able to ‘live with’ all and everything of ‘who you are’ in this moment here infinitely as is – would you be able to live with you within what you currently do within this world day in and day out into infinity – the exact same, no difference, no change?
In having a self honest look at the questions – one would say: No. Why? Because each one currently within this world is who they are and do what they do within this one life believing it to be all that exist, just this one life.
The next question to ask then is: What are we doing here in this world? Why are we here in this world? Is this really all there is to it – we are ‘who we are’ and ‘we do what we do’ in this moment as is, because of our limited amount of ‘time’ here? If we’re not even able to exist with ourselves as is in this moment here infinitely, if we’re not even able to do what we do day in and day out – no change in who we are and what we do – infinitely, into infinity…what’s going on here?
Is this really how each one would want to continue existing within themselves and their world? This experience of you, this experience of you within this world - is this the kind of experience you would have gifted for yourself? Is this world experience as is how you would’ve manifested it for all, including you, because you also exist within and as it, as the experience of you together with all within it?
Then the next question: How did we get here? How did we become ‘who we are’, ‘who I am’ – how did we come to accept and allow such an experience of ourselves individually in this world? And this goes for each one – because we’re all together in this world.
Therefore, within observing these questions, observing yourself, observing your experience, observing this world, observing all of humanity: There must exist an ingrained, a deeply ingrained acceptance and allowance within each one of how we’re experiencing, of how we’re existing in this world in this moment here. To the point where such questions being asked may seem irrelevant for some – that each one has ceased to ask the very question, the question of SELF, the question of ME, the question of I – the question for SELF, the question for ME, the question for I: How and why did I get here? Is this all there is to me, to I, to self as who I am and what I do in this life here in this world?
Now – to be careful, because many would divert the response to the questions to religion or spirituality or the afterlife, or any form of belief or faith – but it is not to divert the response to the question to anything or anyone else but yourself. I am asking YOU these questions – I am not asking your faith, I am not asking your belief, I am not asking your religion and I am not asking your spirituality – I am not asking anything or anyone else but YOU, here – YOU as the being breathing and reading the words.
Having a look at the Law of my Being, the Law of Me – what has always been ‘missed’, what has never been taken into consideration is SELF – who I am, Me – self, I me – to answer the question of ‘who am I’? and ‘why am I here’ – despite the religions, the spirituality, the beliefs, the faiths – for YOU, for SELF for I, for ME – HAVE a look at the questions – then referring back to the previous questions of this you as you are here now, as you do what you do being able to exist with you alone as is into infinity…
Then why are we existing, why are we living ‘towards something or someone’? Why are we existing, why are we living with the belief, the perception, the idea that this is ‘our only and last life’ here in this world?
Who says we have not returned, life after life within and as the principle of reincarnation – but we just don’t remember, we have forgotten. That we have indeed actually so far – had the exact same lives, with the exact same ‘self’, ‘I’, ‘me’ over and over and over again – life after life after life = but not one can remember, each one has forgotten. Then within each life we presume that this is our only and last life here – then we become who we are and we do what we do – believing this is all there is and then it’s not. Not realising that we will return to this world again, with the exact same life experience, the exact same ‘self’, the exact same ‘I’, the exact same ‘me’ – but will not remember, will not recall.
Have a look at this world – this experience within this world: Has this world ever really changed? No – rape still exists, murder still exists, the money system still exists, abuse still exists, children going missing still exists, nature being destroyed, the earth being destroyed due to consumerism still exists, politics still exists, poverty still exists, starvation still exists, theft still exists, suicide still exists, war still exists, presidents still exists, military, police, security still exists – it’s all still exactly the same. But change has been defined as ‘evolution’ – where what has always existed, what has always been here has merely been ‘upgraded in becoming more advanced’. How have we deluded ourselves into believing that this world has or is actually changing in observing this world in its entirety?
If you look at this world self honestly: It has not changed – it is still exactly the same and each one’s experience within it, humanities experience within it is still exactly the same – though the ‘problem’ becoming more ‘prominent’ due to the vast, extensive amount of beings currently existing on the planet – that it is becoming more and more difficult to ignore the dire state this world and humanity is within, within which we exist all together.
In us returning life after life – the exact same ‘me’, the exact same ‘I’, the exact same ‘self’ – returning life after life after life with the exact same experience of me, of self of I, life after life after life – without remembering or recalling the previous life – now taking into consideration all of humanity – it is obvious that if the same ‘I’, the same me, the same self of each and every one return, with the exact same experience within and during the lives – that we will manifest and create – the exact same experience, the exact same world together as one. This is clearly indicated with regards to how this world is as is in this moment here – have a look – this world has gone into ‘one direction’ – remaining stagnant, yet ‘evolving and upgrading’ as building upon a foundation already existent – as a pyramid.
For example: In taking all of humanity as is in this moment here – each one as they are, the exact same definition of themselves as the personality that they are in this moment here – all of humanity, this would be the foundation of the pyramid. Now you ‘recycle’ all of humanity as is, meaning – ‘bring them back to this world to experience themselves within it’ as a ‘new life for each one’, though the I, self, me of each one remaining exactly the same, the very nature, the very law of each one’s being as ‘who they are’ remain exactly the same.
What would occur? Each one would exist as is, as this self, this I, this me as the only self, I, me that they know and understand to exist within and as themselves – and actually build upon the previous foundation of the previous life they had experienced within this world = without even being aware of it.
And so you recycle and recycle, life after life after life all of humanity – as is, the I, the self, the me of each one remaining exactly the same, no change, no difference – and so all of humanity together, build a layer upon layer upon layer as they are recycled from one life to the next – no change, no difference to self, to I, to me – not even being aware that they are experiencing ‘a next life from the previous life from which they had not changed’ – but are without awareness, building and creating and manifesting a world based on what existed before as the first primary foundation of the pyramid with which they’ve started. Therefore recreating the exact same experience of themselves, compounding the exact same experience of all together within this world = this world not changing, humanity not changing – just building and expanding as ‘evolving ‘that which has always been here – that which has always existed.
Have a look at this world – it operates as a pyramid also – and by the looks of it – we’ve reached the tip, the point, the end of the building of the pyramid with regards to ‘evolution’ – because this world is deteriorating, being destroyed – there is nothing more left to ‘build’, to ‘expand’ within and as this world = consumerism reveals this, we’re consuming this world to it’s end, we’re consuming ourselves to our own end…
This world operates as a pyramid as I have indicated from the perspective that nothing in this world has actually ever changed – everything is just compounding, becoming more intense, becoming worse, amplified – constantly just upgrading, expanding and building upon that which has always existed – but the self, the I, the me of each one within and as this world: No different, no change – still the exact same nature, the exact same beingness, the exact same self, I, me of each one within and as this world as all of humanity exists.
The reason why I say we’ve reached the tip, the end, the point of the pyramid – there is nothing more left to ‘build’, to expand upon, to evolve = is because the ‘building’, the ‘expansion’, the ‘evolution’ has transformed into consumerism – taking what does not exist, consuming what does not exist – to the extent where, for example = the food we eat is literally artificial.
So clearly – we have missed something, clearly we are not ‘seeing’ something, clearly we have not realised something, clearly we have not understood something and in having a look at this document thus far: Obviously it is ourSELFves.
What is experienced within us, within each one is experienced withIN, INside ourSELFves – IN-SELF. And we have continued to exist with the exact same self, the exact same I the exact same me – this is all of us, all of humanity, life after life after life, having the exact same experience life after life after life – all together manifesting the exact same world experience life after life after life – manifesting and creating the compounding nature of the experience of us all within and as this world – building the pyramid layer upon layer upon layer to the tip, to the point of it’s completion to where we are now and from where we cannot continue – the consequence: The slow but sure and certain destruction of this world within and as which we exist all together.
Now, this I, this self, this me is that which you currently are and experience you to be: This is the Law of your Being, the Law of I, the Law of Me, the Law of Self = this is YOU – this is what you are and who you are, all and everything of and as you as you sit before your PC and read the words – this is all that you are, all that you have become – have a close look at yourself = this is IT.
And according to his Law of your Being, the Law of your being as the experience of you within yourself and your world as that which you accept and allow you to be one with and equal to = you as it is with each one within and as this world: Manifest the experience of oursSELFves INdividually withIN ourselves and also withIN this world as ourSELFves.
Therefore, you yourself determine ‘who you are’ and ‘how you experience you’ within this world – because who’s here, who’s sitting right here reading these words? YOU are. Who is existing within and as your human physical body in this world? YOU are – YOU, I, me, self.
You are what you are in this moment here by the very Law of your being, as that which you have accepted and allowed you to be one with and equal to = and this goes for each one within and as this world – we are what we are, we are who we are by the very Law of our being and it is this law of our being that has and is determining the very experience of ourselves individually and all together within and as this world.
Therefore – the principle of oneness and equality has always existed – we’re all one and equal within and as this world. One from the perspective that each one of us is determining the experience of ourselves individually, yet all together within this world because we’re all here, from the very Law of our being as ‘who we are’ as all that we accept and allow ourselves to be one with and equal to within ourselves and accordingly experience and manifest – Equal from the perspective that each one has and is still existing within and as the exact same Law of their Being – no different, no change – manifesting and creating individually yet all together this entire world experience as is – over and over and over again.
So – let’s ‘bring all this back to self, to I, to me’ – to each one individually: What must be taken into consideration is that you are here in this world, you are here within and as your human physical body, you are here breathing, speaking and experiencing yourself – and as we have determined before: This that you are now – you will not be able to exist with or live with into infinity.
So – removing the concept of death, removing the concept of this being your ‘last life’ – the question remain: How would you live within you, as you – ‘as who you are’ within and as you in understanding that you will have to exist and live with you and you alone infinitely?
Take into consideration that ‘you’ is ‘who you are’ within and as you – not related or connected to ‘worldly manifestations’ – I am speaking of ‘who you are within and as you alone’ – you existing with you alone infinitely.
This change the entire perspective with regards to SELF, to I , to ME – to WHO I AM. And this is the poInt that is necessary to be realised – because in this moment – many will have absolute no idea, no clue, no indication of how one is to live, transform SELF, I, ME to be able to exist with SELF, I ME infinitely alone – me being with me alone, here, infinitely – because we’ve taken SELF, I, ME, WHO I AM – for granted. That we have never even actually considered SELF in any way whatsoever – but existed as is as ‘who we are here in this moment’ – because it’s all that’s always been here.
So, again – because we’re all here together, one and equal within and as this world, manifesting and creating and determining the experience of ourselves individually yet all together within and as this world = the principle is ONENESS and EQUALITY.
The responsABILITY exist within and as each and every single ONE of us – to transform the experience of ourselves within ourselves and this world within and as this principle of oneness and equality as follows: We have removed all system-manifestations within and as existence to the extent where each one only has the Law of their Being to purify – to transform only SELF, I, ME as ‘who you are’ for and as you individually within and as the principle of oneness and equality – that’s all each ONE as to ‘work with’ = only purifying the Law of your Being.
In having a look at what we have discussed thus far – it is for you to realise that what you are in this moment within you – this ‘who I am’, is all that you are – nothing ‘more’ and nothing ‘less’. It is this ‘who you are’ that is the current Law of your Being – meaning what you have accepted and allowed you to be. It is this Law of your Being that is determining the experience of you within yourself and your world – and so it for each and every single one within and as this world, including within and as the interdimensional existence – all of us.
Within this – you are what you are and how you experience you to be – because of what you accept and allow yourself to be one with and equal to within and as yourself. Now it is to purify / transform the nature of you – the Law of your Being – to exist so, to live so – that you are able to stand, remain and live with and as yourself alone = INFINITELY.
And the way to do this: Is self honesty and self forgiveness.
And anyone asking – but WHY? Have a look – do you want to return to this world again, again forgetting, again not remembering – ‘starting over’ from the exact same ‘self’, I, me – coming to the exact same point here in this moment – facing the exact same transcendence – to stop existing, living as you have always accepted and allowed yourself to? To finally stop and realise that you must live the transformation required within and as this world and so it is for each one?
Do you want to continue returning to an existence with rape, murder, abuse, war, violence, fear – fearing for your own child’s life, fearing for your own life – not having an actual experience of LIVING you, just compounding, becoming greater, becoming more intense until one finally in one life down the line somewhere realise – I have to be the solution?
And another point of common sense: We exist because this world exists, because earth exists – one and equal – and the nations are multiplying and this earth, this world cannot possibly sustain us at the current rate within and as which we exist – and it’s not due to anything else but WHO WE ARE – within and as ourselves – the very Law of our Being – determining the result, the effect we have within and as this world. And this world is not going to wait for us – either we stand, here in this moment – purify the nature of ourselves, the Law of our Being that has for eons of time determined, manifested and created the experience of ourselves and all together within and as existence – or we will be responsible for the end of ourselves, the end of us – to again, all together start back from the beginning – again experience eons of time of the exact same cycle – get to the exact same point, realization and transcendence: That I as each ONE is responsible for ME, this ME includes all as one as equal – because I am here in this existence together with all as one as equal – and if I do not stop and purify me – nothing will stop and everything will remain as is…
Have a look – no other solution has even sustained itself within and as this world – because the solutions that has been proposed or even exist, make not even a refraction of a difference with regards to the situation within and as this world in it’s entirety. Because the solution must be us, must be ourselves, must be ‘who we are’ – us purifying the Law of our Being, individually – herein purifying the world.
Therefore, in each one taking responsibility for self, finally transforming and purifying the Law of your Being as that which you have accepted and allowed you to be and become – transforming and purifying the experience of you within and as your world with self honesty and self forgiveness for and as self – we ONE by ONE stop the cycle, the experience of us all within and as this world – to no more continue existing as we have for eons of time – but finally put a stop to it and for the first time actually LIVE and not exist in constant continuous fear.
The mind within each one represents the current Law of your Being, the current manifested design of the Law of your Being – representing that which you have accepted and allowed you to be one with and equal to – within this, determining the experience of you within and as yourself and your world.
Therefore it is to self honestly have a look at yourself in this moment here – you as the mind representing the current manifested Law of your Being that you are ‘living’ – which we have come to accept as living – but this living is an absolute atrocity as indicated within and as the atrocities that exist within and as this world currently.
This experience of ourselves within this world is not life, is not living and one would be a fool to even think and believe that. This experience of ourselves in this world, within ourselves is as it is – because of the ingrained acceptance and allowance of the Law of our Being as the representation of the mind as all that we are = it is not.
In applying the tools as self honesty and self forgiveness = herein you purify the Law of your Being – to no more accept and allow you to be one with and equal to the mind as that which represents the Law of your Being as that which you have always accepted and allowed you to be. But realise the Law of your Being is YOU as LIFE – not the MIND as what you have always been. So within applying self honesty and self forgiveness – you begin the process of standing one and equal with YOU as who you really are as LIFE – and not the mind as that which you have accepted and allowed you to be one with and equal to in separation.
Therefore you will stand one and equal with and as you as who you really are as life – and thus experience you as who you really are as life as you – and no more as the mind as that which have always for eons of time been the Law of your Being as the representation of all and everything you have accepted and allowed you to be one with and equal to and therefore experienced.
And so each one stop the cycle – the exact same cycle we’ve existed within, as and with the mind representing what we’ve always been and thus manifesting what we’ve always constantly and continuously experienced as this world experience indicate in this moment here.
As each one stop within themselves, purify the law of their being as what the mind represents with self honesty and self forgiveness and stand as life as all as one as equal = Life as all as one as equal as the Law of our Being as who I am – we will experience and manifest who I am as who we are as life.
And thus for the fist time within and as existence – actually live life as who we are as all as one as equal.
And have a look – this solution stand for each one equally – no matter where are you within this world – no matter in what situation you experience yourself within – self honesty and self forgiveness in purifying the Law of your Being as that which the mind is and has represented – to stop what we have always accepted and allowed ourselves to be one with and equal to as the mind, to stand one and equal with and as Life as who we really are – is HERE.
The solution is SELF – purifying the Law of your Being – and so it is for each one equally.
Tue Mar 04, 2008
The law of your being is 'who you are' - meaning all and everything you've accepted and allowed you to be and become, therefore the 'law of your being' is not separate from you - the law of your being is you - is 'that which you are' - the 'who I am' - as all and everything you've accepted and allowed you to be and become.
Therefore - it is 'who you are' 'who you were' - as all and everything of you - that accepted and allowed the enslavement within you and existence, because you accepted and allowed fear to have power and control over you = therefore, because of fear - accepted and allowed enslavement.
It's not about choice - you either exist within fear or you do not exist within fear - this is not about choice, but about what you accept and allow you to be one with and equal to.
If you accept and allow you to be one with and equal to fear = you will be and experience fear and thus manifest and create fear within you and your world.
11 March 2008
I am back in hospital again. The night after the birth of Dj, by a Caesarian. I was very groggy, had morphine, but most of all, so very very alone, lonely. I wanted to run from hospital, hide in the woods, scream, but could not do either. Because of this little being, born out of me. No where to hide from the pain I felt in me, this hole, big big hole in me, black and I am in free fall. The betrayal by the father of this newborn being and me. And no one to turn to, so much deception going on, betrayal, envy.
For the first time in my life I just had to face it - no way out. I was alone and very very lonely, my heart ripped out of my body, almost literally. I wanted to die, just die. But couldn't because of this little creature I felt responsible for. Wasn't really attached to it, yet, had hardly seen him, was born just a couple of hours before and I was severely sedated. Had hallucinations that night, so I was there in this hospital bed, in this hospital room with some other 'fresh' mums, with my eyes very wide open to not sink in this frightening hallucinations. To distract me I listened to some music, headphones on. 'Hallelujah' was the song.
Hearing this song, all the pain compounded in this song - nothing has softened it. I am trembling, shivering. My lips pressed together so no sound comes out. It is dark around me. And in me this hole, big big hole, black and I am in free fall again. I need to cry now. Let it out now. Set myself free from this horror.
later I didn't manage to really face it, back then. Been ill for months, couldn't eat. Just this baby and me, in the dark. One long night for months. Some good memories, me and my son in my arms, so close, intensely :) But no space for me to cry - Dj got very upset when I did, so in the end I stopped even the crying. I stopped myself 'moving' inside, I froze - had to. I had to survive this and take care of my son. So I had to lock this intense pain somewhere in me, for later 'digesting'.
Nine and a half years later now. Didn't really 'unlock' this pain, didn't know how and I failed to see why I should. My life was over, that's what I felt for years. Now I am re-awakening myself. Ough!
What was activated, surfaced, was this deep ingrained feeling of being some sort of trash, something so not worthy you would not even want to look at. And with me, all that came out of me, this child...
And that hurted. This little creature, rejected and put aside as if he wasn't of any worth at all. And I felt so ashamed... I couldn't tell anybody. Telling someone would have made it even more true.
Why did I allow this abuse, though not physical, but nevertheless abuse, why did I allow it to happen and continue? Why didn't I end it immediately? I still do not understand completely. It must have been because deep inside I thought this was the way I should be treated? I am still so much confused. Here I am: I do like myself, thinking nice things about me, but on the other hand there it was, this disempowering experience of being trash...
09 March 2008
Just watched the Missing Children vlogs, the War slaves children, and oh my god, this is horrible! I am feeling sick in the stomach. These things are happening under our noses! Here in Europe too! This child spoke of Bosnië...
I will subtitle these vids and post in Dutch/Belgium video sites - people should know about this, although they probably wont believe it.... but maybe they will start think about it and put 1 and 1 together.
For me, I react very strongly to these vids. Don't know yet how to handle this.
Do not want to surpress this feeling of horror - must go through it, face it, then act where actions can be taken. But first of all, forgive myself for my ignorance, my trust in the 'goodness' of human beings....
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting from myself to believe that humans aren't capable of doing these horrible things to children.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting from myself not wanting to believe that human beings are capable of doing such horrible things to children because that would disturb me so much that I didn't want to live anymore.
I feel like I am punched in the stomach very very hard. It's been over a year now that I decided that I wanted to know the truth about human beings in this world, the Illuminati stuff, NWO, satanists, the whole conspiracy theory and proved 9/11. Have felt sick quite often, still feel I can't take it in completely. More like a nightmare expecting to wake up and feeling relieved that it was just me capable of imagining horrible things, so I must be the one that is horrible, not the world! I wished that was true, just me being horrible, not the world. So it would be a small thing not worldwide.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting from myself
06 March 2008
I am so fucking tired of answering. I do not want any more. I do not want to pour out of an outside source no longer. Dont want to share knowledge anymore. Don't want to talk about things anymore.
I just want to be left 'in peace'. Period.I've been fucked up with this for a long time:
- wanting to help, save, assist others
- wanting to be left 'in peace'
hmm, feeling lots of resistance, to look at it, why do I want to help? Why don't I want to help? fuck...
I want them to listen and not ask all these stupid questions. Just look for yourself, think for yourself, make up your own mind and then ask real questions, common sense questions like 'where can I find this' or 'how should I assist myself in this situation', just practical. Not about Anu or Marduk or other shit stuff, not important at all. Do not waist my time!
I want them to listen - I want me to listen
I want to be left 'in peace' by me...
I don't want them to ask these stupid questions - I don't want to divert myself by taking all these random actions anymore
Do not waist my time - I do not want to waist my time anymore by my own stupid diversion activities/thoughts/experiences yak!
I want to sleep, hide, run away - ieks, panicking!
Feeling sick in the stomach. Fear, rush. Want to scream, bump my head, or the neighbours head
04 March 2008
an example of the subliminal messages found in an adult movie...
I am really making a big thing out of this subliminal stuff - in particular because I am a mom and worried about the effect on my child and all the other children of this world. They have no defense, but are stuffed with subliminals on tv, movies, magazines. And the advertisement, commercials on tv... I have been 'protecting' my son as much as I could for the messages of the commercials by questioning outloud what they wanted you to think, want, desire and talking with Dj about that. And now I see him doing it for himself. So that's nice. But it wont keep him safe from all this subliminal stuff. Sometimes I wished I could keep the world away from him :) That's the parent design, I know.
Then again I know I can do but one thing: stop participating in the mind. But how can I keep my son safe? Although a kid, he is of the mind too. Ok, I can assist and support him in showing and making him see what the mind is and how it works. He is not really coöperative, so I must be doing something wrong here. Maybe coming on too strong. He tells me I don't know everything, that I could be wrong and yes, of course, I could be.
So the answer is: I must live this and he will experience me - just like with the commercials, I acted from within, for years now, not willing to allow these commercials to direct me in buying or believing stuff. I am not free of the influence of commercials, subliminals or all these make belief things I am told, suggested over the years, I am aware of that. Very often I ask myself, seeing that I take things for real, that everyone is taking for real, 'is this true? ' I used to read Science Fiction books, alot, and they have helped me with picturing another world, anther beliefs etc and so 'loosen up' my attachments to this 'reality'. I really like the Desteni approach - all you can touch is reality. Helps me a great deal in not going into this 'white light stuff unreality'.
So what was I talking about again - ah, subliminals.
Was reading on the internet yesterday and found some shocking articles and proofs of subliminals used on Dutch and Belgium tv. Probably originated from the USA - on childrens tv: Walt Disney, on adult tv erotic episodes also from USA. But not all are 'foreign' - there is some Dutch fabrication too. This evidence is from 2000 and 2004, no further investigation has taken place, nor by worried citizens, nor by the broadcasting companies (although they were shocked), nor by the government (as far as I know) Now I am wondering, if we should gather evidence that this is happening here (or some other country) couldn't we go to court with it? I know for sure subliminal messages are forbidden in many countries.
just 3 out of many stills taken from the Walt Disney Kidsfestival, broadcasted by Ketnet, a Belgium Childrens net.